Why the Absence?
It has defnitely been a little while since I have updated here, with good reason. I have been trying to get a couple things off the ground as well as teaching myself a million new things. In my constant struggle to figure out life I’m simply opening my mind to everything it has to give. I find myself emersed in books and how-to’s that I work on immediately and then toss to the side. The thirst for more knowledge with my drive is kind of a bad thing in a way. There are only so many hours in the day to put these new things to use.
On top of all other things that have happened since I last posted (close family member death, still figuring out my energy/stamina problem, and softball season starting) there are just things in life that you need to take care of and put on the forefront. I have been doing a pretty good job managing all aspects. As well as giving up something I created ‘beer pong night’ at a bar that I made them a ton of money on and kind of not purposefully got neglected in treatment and feelings. I have scaled it back a lot, but I am loyal enough to bow out and leave a solution, where it leaves me still having a hand in it but not as much pressure that I had to endure over the past 3 years. I have to say I have only missed 3 days out of the 144 nights I have had to work there, that is quite a feat for me if you know me.
If you look at it though, it explains my general feelings and drive in life. If it is something that interests me and I have created as my own then I am all for it and project it as an image of me. I ran things so smoothly and had it down to a science to only which I really could figure out (with the help of my brother Tom and Nacho). I look back at it and say “Wow, I really did something great for very little in return because It was something I called my own and represented me”. I took crap pay and I put my integrity and image above that. Another reason I did so was out of respect to the guys who gave me the job. One is no longer there and one is there every once and a while and I totally respect and love those guys and would go as far to say they are friends/family to me. Regardless, a common ground was reached and things corrected but too late? Maybe. I still feel as if I need to have a hand in it somewhat because 1. I own equipment used so I have vested capital, 2. I don’t want something I created to become chaos. I won’t let it go down in flames, because it is my own creation.
Well that aside, can’t promise daily/weekly updates but will keep this on my mind to contribute too.
